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happy b. day to me (NOT!!!!!) [15 Aug 2004|11:04am]
Camp is over!!!!!!
So my b. day was yesterday and I spent it at camp. What a miserable idea. But it actually wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. Everyone was super nice and my friends colleen and becca remembered me and had some surprises waiting for me. Love you guys!!! You made my day!!!
But I am def. sad because all my other friends have forgotten me. My best friend (Yamil), my parents and my sister remembered but no one else. Not a single one of my other friends remembered (except Mike M. (WHO I MISS TERRIBLY)). It makes me sad. Sadder than you can imagine. So that's all. I am sad. Because all these people who I love and cherish to death did not remember me on my one day of the year. And that is all.
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Camp!!! [05 Jul 2004|11:22am]
[ mood | energetic ]
[ music | Squealing children outside (they sound like fucking hyenas) ]

Guys please write me!!!!!!! I need to hear from the outside world!!!! I CAN'T HANDLE ANY MORE KIDS!!!! AHHHHHHH!!!!.......Actually I'm doing well and camp is great. But I'd love to hear from you guys. So please write. My address is on my previous entry.
Manny

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Manny is at camp! [27 Jun 2004|11:48am]
[ mood | accomplished ]
[ music | The rustling of the trees in the forrest ]

Hey guys sorry I haven't been able to up-date but I've been stuck at camp and I have zero free time. I have been teaching drama and nature to kids ages 7-17. Its nice to live in the woods and spend the whole day outdoors. Except for the night I bumped into a wolf @ 1:30 a.m. by myself in the middle of the forrest. That was kinda scary...but super cool. I'll tell you about it later though. Anyways, gotta go to class. If you wanna chat with me send me some mail and I'll write back. I love getting mail (get the hint?) Miss you all!!!

Manny

My mailing address is:
Sunrise 4
3586 Horizons Way
Harrisonburg, VA
22802

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Party of the Year! [02 May 2004|03:56pm]
[ mood | happy ]
[ music | "Celebrity Skin" by: Hole ]

Last night was Ryan's house party. What can I say about this party but...WOW!!!!! It was the party of the year! There was no drama (Mostly cause we were missing a few key ingredients: 5 West Siders that I will not mention) So the party was free of drama and full of beer, Everclear, music, beer pong, and a great crowd. The techies and the BA's and the BFA's all together in one party! All being civil and actually enjoying the company of the other! What more could we ask for?! It was like having a dinner party with Romeo & Juliet's entire family with no war (with no "civil blood" making "civil hands un-clean"). Twas a beautiful thing! I love college!

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THE END COMING [24 Apr 2004|01:20pm]
[ mood | calm ]
[ music | Kiss From A Rose ~Seal ]

Tonight will be our last performance of WEST SIDE STORY at the University of Miami. After months and months of long rehearsals the show is finally coming to an end. In a way I am kinda happy because I will get some free time to do the school work I never get to do. But at the same time I am feeling saddened by this event. I have made a great deal of friends through this production and I will be sad to see them go. Although I hate saying this, most of us will never speak to each other other again. That's just the way it goes. But I will never be able to forget anyone in our fantastic cast and crew. It was a rough run with plenty of drama on the side (or actually in the center), but we pulled through and it was a wonderful experience. And we have a great show to show for it!
Tonight is the cast party, (not the official one), the one where we all get drunk and the whole cast hooks up with everybody else in the cast (not that I ever have any part of that. I am a good boy :o)) I'll have to up-date you that at a later time.

P.S. In case you were wondering, my mom did come see the show on our Saturday performance and although it was our worst show (because our "Tony" was sick) she loved it all the same. :o)

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[19 Apr 2004|12:15pm]
To my last entry I just wanna add....that BRIAN, COLLEEN AND OLIVIA rock!!! They filled in for some cast members that were unable to perform on short notice and they pulled it off beautifully. So cheers to you guys as well!!!
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WEST SIDE RULES! [19 Apr 2004|02:01am]
[ mood | ecstatic ]
[ music | THE CARE BEARS MOVIE in the background ]

So I don't wanna re-tell the entire story of what happened this weekend in the show. If you wanna know then go to my friends list and read Mike and Collen's entries, they cover everything. All I am going to say is that WEST SIDE STORY RULES!!! The cast really pulled it together tonight after our previous mishaps and we had the best show yet. I am soooo proud of you guys! Regardless of what some people say (you know who you are, and I know who you are) I do not bring down cast morale. See!!! I give credit when it's due. I won't lie to make people feel good. Cause it's still a lie. Our first shows were a little weak and I did agree with others when they confessed their feeling about it. And yes I did bitch backstage when we were having chaos, I bitched just like everybody else (including these people who dare to accuse me of bitching too much and bringing the cast down. i know who you are!!!) Tonight rocked!!! The cast did better than I ever dreamed. And I made sure they knew it. I can't even point out anyone specific cause EVERYONE was FUCKING great! So cheers to you WEST SIDE cast. Let's keep Rockin' It!

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[15 Apr 2004|11:29am]
[ mood | nervous ]
[ music | Silence, lovely silence ]

So tonight is the official opening night for Quantum's WEST SIDE STORY and I am very very nervous. Mostly because my mom is coming to see it. This is the first UM show that my mother will attend since I've been here. She never came to see my Murder Mystery, or the Musical Revue (thank god for that one), I didn't tell her I was in the Rocky Horror Show because she was still dealing with the gay thing (and that show really screamed gay, bi, straight, and all of that mixed. whatever that means. maybe it just means bi. lol) And then came A CHORUS LINE... The show I asked her not to come to because I was playing a gay character with a monologue about coming out to his parents (this is a big no-no for a mom who recently found out her son was gay). Even though I had asked her not to, I was more than a little hurt when she didn't come. The only reason I told her that was because she was freaking out about it, so I wanted to save some of my dignity by pretending I didn't care if she came. Well...she bought it, and didn't come. To this day she still hasn't been able to watch it, not even the video! Talk about dramatic! I came out to her 3 years ago! Get over it!
So now for West Side, she started freaking out about me having my hair dyed and having to wear tights (cause it's kida gay. it's not like I wear fucking tights to go out on the street!). So I did the usual and pretended I didn't care if she came. But then I realized that it was time to stand up to her. And I did! I told her everything that I had been feeling the past 4 years, and I told her that I was done with apologies for what I was doing for theatre. I love theatre and sometimes "you gotta do what you gotta do" for a show. I told her that I have always wanted her to come to my shows, but if she wouldn't come support her son for a silly reason like hair dye then it was better that she didn't come. Because I am proud of my shows at UM. And I will not let her put them down!
And then of course...she decided to come.
So she's coming tonight and I am freaking out cause I have to not fuck up today. I need to do a fantastic show since I made such a big deal out of her not coming. I am really happy she decided to come. But that's what's got me nervous because I just wanna make her proud.

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[14 Apr 2004|11:18pm]
Just got back from WEST SIDE STORY'S Preview Night...














I am tired.
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WEST SIDE [14 Apr 2004|11:09am]
[ mood | exhausted ]
[ music | The filter of my fish tank...and Mike snoring ]

What can I say about West Side? Well...
Last night was what one typically calls a "final dress". Except it was the first time we ever wore costumes. So I'd like to call it "first dress", if even, it might be better called, a "first fitting". Pilar really did a great job picking costumes. Except she never really bother to see if they fit us correctly. Most of the costumes are either too large, too small or not good for dancing. And maybe if we had rehearsed in them earlier we might have gotten used to it but at this point it is really hard. Also, after my entire ordeal with the tights, they have been cut from the show. Normally I would be happy but I had to shave my legs (which I really hate) and spend $30.00 on tights and $18.00 on ballet shoes that I will never, ever be able to use in my life. THAT PISSES ME OFF!!!!!!!!!!!! I specifically asked if they were sure they wanted them before I bought them so I wouldn't waste my money ...and what happens??? They change it the night before the show!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHH!!! I am not a money tree!!!!!!
So then the lights wouldn't work cause the light board got wet. Which wasn't anyone's fault but it lowered the cast morale regardless (its hard to do a final rehearsal with no lights)
So then...(oh yea... there's more)! So then the sound system wasn't working properly and we couldn't hear the orchestra and therefore kept getting lost in the music. The dancing was off because of it, the singing was off, and the acting was as well because we couldn't hear them. The only thing that was left for us to do was to put our ears to the speakers and sing into a mike from there. That would have looked great!
So in addition to that we all got very pissy and were bitching up a storm. And I have to include myself on that one because I typically do my bitching after rehearsal but last night I couldn't hold it in and exploded in the dressing room. I guess we all have our moments. So basically tonight is our preview night and we are soooooooooooo not ready. I know the cast knows the show, they are fantastic and they can def. get it. But if these other small (or rather enormously large) glitches in sound, costumes and lights don't get fixed I'm afraid we are in for a very interesting show. Nicole and Colleen did great, and so has the cast, but it just isn't coming together. I hope it does tonight.

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Damn the West Side! [06 Apr 2004|02:33am]
[ mood | tired ]
[ music | Theme to The Breakfast Club ]

Okay so venting...
I love West Side Story.
But I am ready for it to be over. I have had ZERO (and that means zero!!!) time on my schedule and now rehearsals go till midnight. From 6:55p.m. till midnight. And it's not even tech week! I know I will miss it once it's over. But I need some time to get the rest of my life in order. It seems like West Side has taken over and I have neglected everything else. (For example my 5 classes) I am graduating in 5 weeks! I seem to have forgotten. Fuck! Fuck! Darn!
Oh and before I forget to bitch about this...I HAVE TO WEAR WHITE TIGHTS IN THE SHOW!!! White T-I-G-H-T-S!!! I know I have a nice ass (I swear I am not conceited) and all but I don't really want to flaunt it in front of an entire audience. They are not even white...once I have them on they seem to go TRANSPARENT. T-R-A-N-S-P-A-R-E-N-T!!! West Side is becoming a rendition of SHOWGIRLS. Naked people dancing to showtunes. Only with out the lesbians. And minus Elizabeth Berkley...and Gena Gershon (who's hot hot hot!!!!).
Oh well, the sacrifices one must make for theatre. Damn it! I wish I didn't like it so much. (not the lesbians, the theatre)
On the plus side...the show is looking great. Some stuff still needs work but most of it is getting there. I think it will be a huge succes once it all comes together after tech week.
Go WEST SIDE! FAR FAR AWAY!
I'm kidding. :o)

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Damn Irrationality [30 Mar 2004|03:13pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]
[ music | The sound of my babies (frogs) croaking ]

Okay, so I have cooled off since my last entry. Sometimes it is good to vent when you are stressed. My last entry was a venting session of mine. I thought I had locked the entry but apparently in my stupid, blinding rage I forgot to (LOL). Sorry about that guys, I didn't mean what I said. Well... I did mean it at the time but it was just a moment of irrationality (of which I have many. and if you know me well enough you have probably sat through a few of them).
I have made many friends at UM in the last year (you all know who you are), many of whom will still remain here once I have graduated. So I am sorry for leaving you out of my last entry. I appreciate and love you guys a lot. And I am glad we don't have to part yet.
Truthfully, I am scared shit-less because I am about to graduate and move into what we like to call "the real world". Time for a job, a home, taxes, etc. I know I am ready for it, but I can't help but have some reservations. In less than 2 months I have to begin a whole new life, my future life as a adult. And although it is something we must all go through, I am terrified. But it comforts me to know that I will have my family with me, my blood family and my adopted family (my friends). Thanx for being there for me guys! You make this all a little easier for me.

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Pensativo [28 Mar 2004|05:42pm]
So it is official. I am staying in Miami after graduation. I couldn't think of anything worse. I don't know why I feel this way since I've enjoyed my last 4 years here to the fullest. Lately I've been thinking that it wasn't the smartest decision. My friends are all leaving and moving on, (except Collen :o). Which makes me happy cause I love her) and it seems like I am not. I want to go somewhere new where I don't know anyone. I want to go somewhere where I can start a new life. I don't think Miami or UM for that matter is the place for me. But I have made my decision and it is too late to change that now. The best I can hope for is for a good job where I will make enough money to get the fuck out of here as soon as I can. I want school to be over, I want west side to be over, I want UM to be over, I want this part of my life to be over and done with!
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2004 Update [10 Mar 2004|12:34pm]
[ mood | chipper ]
[ music | The theme song to the Outback Steakhouse on the radio ]

I am back again! It seems like I make one entry every semester. (Sorry LJ I still love you) This has been the hardest semester I have had in college yet. Or maybe it isn't so hard and it's just me having a bad case of senioritis? Well in any case it has been really tough and to top things off I have not been attending most of my classes. So I got 2 academic alerts, one for bad attendance and one for being on the verge of failing a class. Of course I can't let me parents see it! (OMG! They would castrate me!!) So I called my little sis. and she is checking the mail for me every day so she can be the first to find the letter from UM and burn it. :o) What mom doesn't know won't hurt her.

I was cast in two shows this semester, WEST SIDE STORY as Diesel (random jet #1,000) and in LATINS ANONYMOUS as Armando (a drunk) and Dicky Martin (a very gay version of Ricky Martin). Latins Anonymous was put on last month and it was a huge success. We even got asked to perform it in two other venues this semester. But I am not sure if we will be able to because of time constraints. (Damn school!)
WEST SIDE is still in rehearsals and will be put on in April. I don't have a very large part in the show, (like I said, random jet #1,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000) but it is still a lot of fun to work on. The cast is a really cool group of people and most of the time we just goof off in rehearsal. I am glad that I get to be in one last show with my friends before I graduate.

Graduate?! Forget I said that!! That is the forbidden subject!!! I will not be reminded of it!!!!
So changing the subject...

I am going to N.Y.C. for spring break. Mike (A.K.A. best roommate in the world, Fashion) and I got a hotel room in the city and we are going to party seriously!!! Although our ideas of party are very different from the other. My idea of party is going to the Met, Central Park and Wicked, and his is seeing the MSNBC Studio Tour, Carson Daily and Regis and Kelly (just kidding Mike!) at least we can both agree to get drunk at the St. Patrick's Day Parade in the city!!!
I am really looking forward to N.Y. because I will get to see my best friend Yamil (A.K.A. best friend, Chonkie, Puto!!!) who I haven't seen since christmas and my friend Chad (A.K.A. Chadwick, "Shut up bitch! I'm cooking!) who I haven't seen since he left UM last Spring.

Oh and before I forget...
I have become a vegetarian. This is my 5th month going veggie and I can't imagine it any other way. I owe my new food selection to my friend Derek (A.K.A. DK, D. Dawg!) I am sure many animals out there are thankful to Derek, as am I.

Oh and one more thing I forgot to mention...
Shana (A.K.A. best friend, Shaye)isn't moving to N.Y.C. with me!!! Her mom is being a major $%#@%&^(bleep)!!!! She made her move to L.A. with her grandmother. So I guess me and my best girl will have to part ways when I graduate.
That's so sad. :o(

Wait a minute! I didn't say graduate! Forget I said it! I never said it!!!! Fuck graduation! Shit I said it again! I am graduating in 2 months and can't face it!
Fuck!
Fuck college, Fuck graduation!
Fuck I said it again!

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A NEW YEAR [28 Aug 2003|04:35pm]
[ mood | rejuvenated ]
[ music | "Love At First Sight" ~Kylie Minogue ]

So I am finally back with L.J. I missed you soo!!!!!
It is the beginning of a new school year, senior year!!!! It's really exciting but at the same time kinda depressing because me and my friends all have to part ways. Even though we all knew that before we came to UM I think it might still be hard. We will all be leaving in the spring and Monique will be left behind. How sad :o( !
So yea, let me catch you up on the missed stuff.

Mike Vo. and I became official after my spring break trip to NYC. We dated for about a month and then we broke up because of irreconcilable differences. But get this, I dumped him on the day of our 1 month. What a major asshole thing for me to do right! I really do feel bad about it. Well after about a week (and almost getting raped by a sleazy frat boy) I realized that I liked Mike more than I had I thought and I tried to get back together with him (more like begged). He had gotten tired of begging me for a reconciliation and when I came crawling back (big mistake!) he didn't know what to do. He decided to give it another shot but after a few days decided that he didn't like me anymore, so he dumped me! What the fuck?!!! I come crawling back and he dumps me!!! ARG!!!
That just goes to show that he didn't really care as much about me as he professed. I apologized for my mistake and he couldn't forgive me. So shame on you Mike! The point is that I became super depressed and cried like a pussy (bad visual). I got into MEGA PATHETIC MODE! It took me like a month to get over him. But I finally did. Out of sight- out of mind!
When the new semester started (Fall 2003) I bumped into him a few times and after freaking out and questioning weather or not I still liked him I decided that I didn't and that I wanted to make peace and maybe be friends with him. SO I IM'ed the BASTARD to wish him good luck on an audition he had and he ignored me, he just decided not to respond. So there will be no more attempts on my part. He can go fuck off because I feel no need to make peace with him anymore. FFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCKKKKKKK YYYYYYOOOOOOUUUU!!!!!!!!!!
This page will be my last venting session and after this...he no longer exists, he is not worth my time (or anyone elses). I thank him for being my first boy friend and for showing me what it is I DON'T want in a guy. I don't wish him bad though, I hope he finds happiness, very far far away from me.
And so I say goodbye..."Godbye Mike Vo. we had good times...sometimes. Later fatty!" :o)

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:o) [16 Mar 2003|11:37am]
[ mood | ecstatic ]
[ music | "BECOME" ~Spice Girls ]

Last night...what to say about last night? Well, it was my turn to plan the evening with Mike since he planned it the night before. I decided since we went out the night before that we were going to stay in. So I fixed up the room, filled it with flowers and candles so that the only light in the room was the light from the candles (I am soooo gay!!!). I also set up my comforter in the center of the room and moved everything around so that we could have plenty of space to sit. I also set up a small table with menus in the center of the comforter and had some classical music playing in the background. So basically, I created my own restaurant in the room. (A cozier one)I asked him to meet me in my room at 8:45p.m. And surprised him with the setup when he got there. We ordered dinner and chatted and watched a movie (More like 2) and we just had a very nice time. So I guess there isn't much else to say but that...I am very happy. :o)
There is only one problem...I am very happy but the thought of getting hurt by Mike is always in the back of my head. I know I need to let go of it but it's a scary thought. I already made myself vulnerable by accepting to be his bf. Dating is so scary! Or maybe it just feels like that because I'm an amateur? Well, I guess only time will tell. I hope it all goes well.

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[15 Mar 2003|10:51am]

My goddamn rock solid ghetto shiznit name is Ass Machine Cwac Cwac.
What's yours?
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This is really funny because as you guys all know, I collect stuff with ducks. And go figure, my name ends up having a "cwac cwac". That's really funny!
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Spring Break 2003 [15 Mar 2003|10:26am]
[ mood | happy ]
[ music | "MY STRONGEST SUIT" ~Aida ]

Alrighty, I just got back from New York and my Spring Break is almost over but there is a lot to tell. I had never been to N.Y.C. and last friday I got on a plane and took the 3 hour flight there. I went to visit Yamil (the best friend) in Long Island for a few days. It was so long since I'd seen him. I missed him! So anyways, I finally got to meet his girlfriend and I must say that she is a damn good pick. She is cute, sweet, funny and is totally focused on him (he needs that). It was a pleasure meeting her. So we stayed in a hotel in the city for 3 days because we got tired of taking the subway, train ride and taxi's needed to get to Long Island. N.Y.C. was a lot of fun but a little disappointing at first. I guess people made the city seem more than it was to me and although I really liked it, I was not that impressed (except for Times Square). I've realized that I am more impressed with natures own natural wonders rather than a cement building. The city was an amazing place to visit but I don't think I would ever want to live there. I need trees, and wind and water, I need to see that sky and the sun and... I hate the damn cold!!!!!!!!! LOL! It was freezing! It went below zero a few times! ARG! Anyways I am back in Miami and getting ready for classes to resume.

On another note...Tech Week for A CHORUS LINE begins this Sunday (tomorrow) and the show stats on Saturday. I am very nervous, I am really worried about my monologue cause I don't wanna bore the audience. Oh well, I just going to do my best.

Last thing...I promise. Last night Mike Vo. and I went out on a date. He planned it so I didn't know where we were going. He took me to Cafe Tu Tango in the Groove and we had a really nice time there. When the waiter brought the check he had gone to the bathroom and I payed the check. As soon as he got back the waiter brought the receipt for me to sign and Mike, seeing that I had payed the bill got pissed off. LOL! He said that he was the one who invited me out and he wanted to pay the bill. Needless to say, he nagged me until I took his cash to cover what I had payed. Then we went for a walk and he took me to get ice cream. After that we watched a movie in my room. And I have some news...I have a boyfriend. I had said no to being his bf the last time he asked and now I was the one to ask. He accepted. So I have my first bf! I am worried about getting hurt in the end but...I can't worry about those things if I ever wanna date anyone. And plus...I like him. So we'll see how it goes. Wish me luck!

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Long overdue update [04 Mar 2003|01:40pm]
[ mood | tired ]
[ music | "NOTHING COMPARES" ~Sinhead O'Connor ]

I know I haven’t updated for a while…but I’ve been super busy. And yes it is true that “busy” is the same excuse everyone uses when they don’t write in their journal but…I really have been. Busy I mean. So here is a little synopsis of the events of the past week.

Mike Vo.

1) 2 Fridays ago my friend Josh (nikkyc2001’s boy) hosted a party for the cast of A CHORUS LINE. So this guy Mike Vo. had sent me an IM earlier in the day apparently he had noticed me around. I pretended I really didn’t notice him but I knew who he was because he had gone out with Mike (my roommate) a few times and I wasn’t interested. Don’t you just love the drama of “the gays” LOL! So anyways…we met @ the party and talked for a while and ended up talking @ the UC till like 6:30 a.m. (The talk was mostly flirting. It was nothing meaningful) But I did end up kissing him at the end of the evening or rather… the early morning. :o)
2) The next day he invited me to go to the cast party for THE FROGS AND MIDSUMMER MADNESS with him and I accepted. The party was a blast! Those conservatory kids sure know how to throw a party! So by the end of the evening I was very, very drunk (just like the night before) and he offered to walk me home…somehow we ended up making out in the grass under a tree by the canal that connects to Lake Osceola. It was very romantic, it started to drizzle and we continued to go about our business under the cool rain and moonlight. Until…a MOTHER FUCKING lighting bolt hit something near us and I nearly shit my intestines out of fright!!! (Nasty visual…sorry) So it started to rain and thunder intensely and we were forced to find refuge, where we made-out some more…till 6 a.m. again. :O)
3) To make my story shorter…I have been seeing Mike every night for the past week and a half. My guy friends don’t really seem to like him. Most of them have asked me to stay away from him and they say it’s because they don’t want me to get hurt. (I’m not a child!) He doesn’t seem as bad as they make him sound to me. Besides…I have to make up my own mind about people. So guys…thanx for the advice but I’d rather find out about him for myself.

I really like him…but I don’t want to let him know yet. I don’t want to put myself in such a vulnerable state yet, especially since I don’t know him well enough. We aren’t “together” yet…but we are seeing only each other at the moment. “Together” sounds nice to me but I don’t know if I am ready for it yet. Although… I really do like him.

A CHORUS LINE

The show is going good. It seems to be slowly coming together. There is still a lot of work to be done.
Sunday Shana had a BBQ at her house to celebrate Ashley’s B. Day and we got soooooooo drunk. And normally that would be good but the problem was…we had rehearsal right after. So we get there and out of a cast of 17, SHANA, CHAD, ASHLEY, DOM, JESSICA, AUBREY, OLIVIA, BETCY AND MYSELF were wasted. So we get to rehearsal and it was a total mess. I had to deliver my 3 page monologue drunk (Yes that was fun!) And the rest of the people either had attacks of laughter or couldn’t keep their balance during the dances. I lost mine a few times too. I realize this was terribly unprofessional but it’s not like I planet to get drunk for rehearsal…it just happened. And I’m usually very responsible…I guess every good boy has a bad day. LOL!

Another thing is...Zach (the director of the show) is pissed because Mike gave me too many hickies on my neck and he doesn’t want them to show for the show. So hickies are banned from now on. :oP

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[04 Mar 2003|12:45pm]

Which chicago Character Are You?

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